repost repost- and I feel very little. I need to be close

i have decided to repost this deleted post only because there is no reason to hide anything. it gets pretty burdenous to think that I shouldn't spew my guts to the anonymous wanderers of the world that I don't talk to anyways... or don't talk back.

MONDAY, JULY 6, 2009

obsession or boredom?

I have decided to take time off in the Bronx since I REALLY REALLY can't afford to take a trip out west to follow 311.

gotta get a little more rational these days.

But anyways... so logically, like the airhead I am, forgot all my papers and proposals and things for shows I have been working on. Now I am left alone with cable television, internet, a nickel bag in a receipt, a carefree panic, and a conventional oven.

I was cruising around the 311 site looking at random info and stats and I saw something that brought back such a distinct memory- as follows:-ish

I had been living in new york for several years, doing my own thing, finding my way, and a very old friend from California had moved to the (north) east coast and bought us 7th row tickets to the 8/19/06 (geez... 06. seemed like a year ago honestly) show at Jones Beach. Because of lady issues, his now wife wouldn't let him go. So I picked up the tickets and ventured off with my then roommate.

The journey there fine. memories, memories.

and on to the point of this useless and time consuming blog entry which has already taken me an hour to write was that I remember fucking rocking out to every freaking song- even with the wailers (which reminds me of a comment some girl on a bus said to me after the show)...... but except i zoned out to one song-! Grassroots. and I remember that I was just standing there thinking. I was totally zoned out and just flowing, but I didn't realize that it was that noticeable until I looked at the last played list and that was the show that that song had last been played.

I'm half honored, half ashamed. I apologize.

I think that show was the first 311 show I had seen on the east coast... so no 311 for 4 years? really? wow... looking at the shows and tours and whatnot, it looks like longer.. well crap.

ps, if this proposal for the canadian show goes through, this is going to be super lame.

pps. im not writing as eloquently as i could because i have no energy. too late to bust some moves? possibly, ==.